You.

By: Amena J. Brown

You find me when I’m hiding behind all my disguises/You see me/It takes you to keep

me breathing/You are heart/Passion/Vision/Word Incision/You send me and you bring

me close/Close close closer/Until when you look at me you see you/You are

heavenly/My present and future destiny/You are Father/Creator/Sustainer/Life

changer/Pride breaker/You are yesterday today and forever/You are pleasure/You are

worth/Reason/Present in every season/You are worship/Devotion/You are the reason for

all my commotion/You are the one that I pray to/You can tell that I’m nothing without

you/So awesome that I can pray to you about you/To know you/To sense you/To believe

you more/To love you more/To obey you more/To give you more of my heart

Oh God search me/Know me/See me/Examine me/Test me/Love me/ Watch me/Protect

me/ Show me/ Investigate me/ Be pleased with me/Question me/ Keep me/ Change me/

Have me/ Correct me/ Take me/ Help me/ Create in me/ Break in on me/ Be my reality/

Sustain me/ Decrease me/ Decrease me/ Decrease me/Decrease me/ Until there is no me

left/ Only you/ Only you/ Only you

You are light/ Are true/ Are you/ Are hope/ Are love/ Are strength/ Are escape rescue

safe/ You are peace/ You are belief/ You are advance and retreat/ Of what, to what, to

whom can I compare you?/ You are my all things new/ You are my place of refuge/ You

are my fortress/ My rest/ My creativity in the strength of your words to me/ You are my

ability to see hear feel move live breathe be/ You are life and death all at the same time/

You are friend/ You are believer savior redeemer/ You are today tomorrow and the next

day/ And the next day and the next day and the next day/ You are truth/You transcend old

age and youth/ You are timeless/ priceless/ lightness in darkness/ greatness/ goodness/

sinless/ And in a mess like my life you see righteousness/ You leave me speechless/ You

alone are God

2002 Amena J. Brown. All rights reserved.

I saw this poem (yea, saw the poem) on youtube.com.  It was spoken by I believe the poet herself and the magnanimity  of it all left me speechless.  It was like a poem spoken to my very being.  It was like the words in my mind, where coming out of this poets mouth.  It was unbelievable. 

I wish I could tell you things have gotten better, you know, with me getting this new job and all.  My problem is this, I can’t stand where I’m at.  I’m restless again, I can’t seem to stay in one position, I’m tired of doing nothing, and yet, I can’t seem to figure out something to do.  What am I missing in life?  What does God have planned for me? 

I think I decided to stay at RLEFC’s youth group.  I feel that I’ve made too many “friendships” with some of these kids… I don’t want to lose that connection with them and I want to see all of them come to a closer walk with God.  I somehow feel that God has given me a gift of love for the youth and he’s put me in this place so that He can be shown.  I could also be justifying the fact that I don’t really know what else to do. 

I’ve been told by several people that I have a natural gift at speaking to the kids.  That the kids seem to look up to me and listen to me.  I hate ringing my own bell, but maybe that was Gods way of telling me that he wants me here?  Or maybe I’m justifying my own selfrighteous attitude.  I wish I had a simple answer…