I’m in the middle of watching this horrible movie.  Its called “Thirteen”… its about teenagers and trying to find their way in the world.  They get mixed up with drugs, sex, alcohol, and their families are seperated or gone.   The girls go through friendships like water.  It makes me so sad to see this happening.  I mean, I know its just a movie, but you know its happening around me.  You know there are kids who try and fit in in anyway they can.  The main girl is cutting herself to try and get rid of the pain.  It breaks my heart.  I mean, what can I do?  What can I possibly do?

I guess I’m re thinking my decision about leaving the youth group at the end of the year.  I mean, I see so much pain in some of these girls.  I want to help girls who are going through depression and trying to fit in.  I mean, I tried as well, not as much as these girls are doing, but I mean, I know the pain of being rejected.  I hate knowing that there are girls out there dealing with this crap!!!

The pain I see in these girls, I mean seriously brings me to tears.  This shouldn’t be happening.  It shouldn’t be like this.  I mean, come one!!!  Where are the people in High Schools?  There’s younglife, yea… but why aren’t we doing more?!?!?  Why aren’t we helping these girls… why aren’t we doing something to change the tide on their futures… I hate that it ends with out an ending.  This movie doesn’t have an ending.  I want to write that ending.

I want that ending to go a little something like this:

Main girl goes to the school counselor who turns her over to a pro-bono counselor who turns her to a local youth group for troubled inner city kids.  Thats when I come in.  Thats when I come in.  I show her whats waiting for her.  I show her that through her pain, amazing blessings await her.  That behind every dark cloud, a beautiful sunrise is awaiting for her.  I show her that through Jesus’ pain, We are saved from eternal damnation in hell.  I mean, is it that hard?  I know its not going to be easy… I know that I’m going to find problems.  I know its not going to be easy… at all.

Oh God… what are you trying to tell me?!?!  What do you want me to do?  Please Lord, help our younger generation grow in a saving knowledge of you.  We know we need  you!!!  I know I need you… help me know where to start… Oh God… God of mercy and God who saves even me.  Please show me the way, the will, and the wisdom of you.